Thursday, September 22, 2005

I wrote a post yesterday but it was so annoying, blogger had some kind of error and wiped my post away. Yes it dint get saved into their database.

I was just mentioning somehow Im really quite tired of all these nonsense about work and everything that's ongoing in my life at the moment, I just kinda felt that its so depressing.

Perhaps I am going through depression without even knowing it. Life has kind of lost its taste to me now. Absolutely tasteless. I do not know what I'm going, just drifting in and out of consciousness each day and night. Just like the unstable network im experiencing in school today.

I met up with my secondary school good friend yesterday. It lifted my moods a little. To have seen him was to be reminded of the silly childish things you have done while in secondary school, in the class, as well as the long phone calls we have had, discussing about puberty in particular. He was my good friend then. I have always had this things with guys. I am better friends with men than bitchy females.

We stared at each other while discovering each other in the library, while i was comtemplating my blogger entry and we were like "Oh MY GOD!"

Haha, its nice somehow to have met him. Cheered me up a little.

Something else happened yesterday. Nothing very shocking like the suicidal case we have had on our first day of school after the assignment one week break (where we all rushed to complete our assignments and be culled to death if you dont hand them in.)

I participated in a volunteer programme. Something to help the Singapore Children Society. It is a penpal thingie. Where I write leetters to the children in their care and i receive letters from them. PRobably where I could advise them about things they are undergoing in school or what.

I received my letter yesterday. I wrote the reply in like 30 mins flat in the library. Bought the stationery paper and stuff from the bookshop downstairs and voila the letter was completed. Now I just have to hand that letter back to the social worker and the deed would be done.

From kenny sia's blog I jumped over to xx's friend's blog - wanyi. And discover a great quiz. PErsonality quiz. Quite accurate I think. At least of my feelings at the moment. Im feeling really lousy.

It says:You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfillment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realize the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

Loneliness is soul destroying and at this time you feel lost and lonely, perhaps it is because you feel so frustrated that you are prepared to go out of your way to become emotionally involved with someone who could accept you for what you are. You are egocentric, antagonistic and quick to take offense, although it must be said, you can control your pent-up up emotion and thus avoid open conflict.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.

lala I know im a perfectionist, im mind my own opinions and I detest pressure and im hot tempered haha! ;P